A story of my life so far

I have been wanting to write this book for the longest time. I am doing it for my children so they know who I am how I grew up and why I am the way I am. We never really ask our parents these things well I haven't and before I lose my marbles and can't remember I want to have it all down on paper out there for others to remember and for my children to get a grasp of who I am and for me too to find out more about myself as I go through the journey. Today I messages a childhood friend of mine to let her know how important our times were together and how that has shaped me. I had an incredible happy childhood. I sent her the piece on our time and she said its brought her to tears and she was happy I was writing it. 

I think It may  be very therapeutic for me. 

A story of my life so far

I have been wanting to write this book for the longest time. I am doing it for my children so they know who I am how I grew up and why I am the way I am. We never really ask our parents these things well I haven't and before I lose my marbles and can't remember I want to have it all down on paper out there for others to remember and for my children to get a grasp of who I am and for me too to find out more about myself as I go through the journey. Today I messages a childhood friend of mine to let her know how important our times were together and how that has shaped me. I had an incredible happy childhood. I sent her the piece on our time and she said its brought her to tears and she was happy I was writing it. 

I think It may  be very therapeutic for me. 

Week 5 Not doing as well as I would like. But its all me.

Well the reason I say this is because I am not giving it my all. I know that i feel totally like shiz when I eat the wrong foods and I know when I don't work out I don't eat as well. Well that needs to be one of my mindset lessons to myself is to be strong and not give into the temptation of doing whatever is easy. I am not craving shiz foods I am having them for convienience. I went out for a meal tonight (farewell for a workmate) and I chose the pizza. Not the Salad which would have been the better choice or the Fish but the pizza. So these are the things that I am not very happy with. I also have stopped eating the things on the menu. I need to go back to doing that and trying things that I would not normally eat. I also need to look at the workouts and do what she tells me to do and not my own thing as my own thing did not work before and It won't work this time. I have decided that my main goal is to have a tummy tuck and a boob lift and maybe implant ( depending on how limp they go after the weight loss) So I need to stick with it and follow it to a T like I said that I would in the first place.
So this week from tomorrow which is weigh in day. I will get back to following the plan like it is put there for me to follow and see how well I go then....

Into Week 4 Mini milestone.

Well I have been doing OK and that is all. I should and could be doing alot better than I am. I am feeling good and know that my clothes are fitting alot nicer. I have had a few miserable weigh ins where I have felt a little disheartened but not the normal kind that I feel, I usually decide to pack it all in and give up because I am just not seeing it move on the scales but this time I am a little more reasonable with myself. I feel better my skin is amazing I feel like my clothes fit me better and I DO feel smaller. So I decided that I would do my measurements again and Low and Behold I HAVE lost. Lost Centimetres. 7 from my waist, 3 from my thighs,, 3 from my hips, 1 from my arms and 5 from my bust. I can affort 5 from there let me assure you. So That is fantastic I THINK.. I have been a little off with my food choices, having a handful of M&Ms here and a choc chip cookie there but nothing like the splurges I would have before. I DO need to cull that though as I will start to be dissapointed because I am sabotaging myself. I also am a little slack with the workouts. I have done 3 to four a week and we are supposed to be doing 6. Im not doing much core work which I should be so I will try to focus on that from now on. Consistency, eating what she says and nothing more and also working out the 6 times a week. 

I am very happy at the moment and am glad I decided to do this challenge, I am starting to get compliments which is nice also. So here is to another week where I tighten the reigns again. 

Week one completed. Heres to week 2

I went into week one all pumped and excited by what was to come. I hesitantly did the before shots and weigh in but I know that it is a necessary tool to gauge the weight I have lost etc. So Week one was a little hard on the first day I was STARVING. I wasn't sure how to add in my snacks etc but I got that worked out quick smart. I also felt so tired by day 3 and did not want to get up and work out but I am learning to talk myself into things not out of them. I know from previous experience that I would always feel guilty for not doing a workout but NEVER felt guilty about doing one. So I got up and did my workout. I have discovered too that I am much better with energy and eating right if I get in that workout. I had a few times during the week that yummy food was offered to me and the first time I almost (just by habit) took it but I stopped myself and said NO I am NOT having that. I also had a time where I picked up pizza for the kids (they were having a sleep over) and traveled in the car all the way home with it smelling so delicious. I did not even have a piece. I was sure tempted but again talked myself through it instead of acting on impulse like I normally do. I also made myself go to a local 12wbt meet and greet to meet some others who are doing this program and that is WAY out of my comfort zone. It was wonderful to meet some ladies who had done it before. My girlfriend and I were newbies the others had lost 60 35 and 30 kilos... They had great tips for us. 
I am so motivated to keep going and I am sure that there are going to be hard times but I will try to talk myself around when they arise...

Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation. Day one.....

Well I joined the 12wbt last week as I am so sick to death of myself. I need something that will work I need the motivation from others and seeing some of the success stories and also the most amazing group of people on the forums I decided to bite the bullet and give it MY ALL. I will be blogging here as my journey goes along as I need to vent and it will help others who are thinking of joining next round and It will also keep me accountable on this journey.
I will say that I was very excited to receive that shopping list and nutrition and exercise plans. I did my fitness test and came out at the intermediate level. I am on the 1200 calorie plan. The food was a tad expensive as I still had to buy school food and foods that the others would probably not eat. But I am planning on making the meal for everyone as they could all benefit from a much healthier lifestyle. The first workout today was a good one and I found myself doing some of the advanced moves in some areas as I have been exercising for quite some time but obviously not eating right.
I burned 439 calories and ate 1069 calories for the day.. So thats a good start. I didn't stray from the program which is also good for me as I normally cannot handle not having a choice of what to eat. Although I can just find recipes of the same caloric value to replace the ones Im not keen on.
So I was a bit hungry as I thought that I was only allowed one snack and it was a vegetable based snack, so I had corn thins, cottage cheese with tomato. I could have had another morning snack as my cals were low. I did end up having one slice of raisin toast and a teaspoon of marg.... But using my fitness pal I added the cals and ended up where I said before. I have been drinking sooooooo much water that I spent most of today in the loo. My body will get used to it Im sure....
So all in all Day one was a success and here is to day 2....

I miss you!

I still think of you day in and day out.
Still miss your smiling eyes,
They way you used them to let me know how you felt,
makes me want to cry.
I remember moments had by us that were for us and no one else,
and the thought of times like that I hold all to myself.
You made me laugh you make me cry
But I would not wish a moment by.
Life is so short and I often think Why! Why! Oh why!
So what I have is memories that mean so much to me
And when I think about you and how much you made me see,
Even though you bagged me out (lol) and teased me joyfully.
I smile a little smile to myself and am glad I had you in my life
and I will get on with it as that's my given right.
Life is not always fair and that's what makes us stronger.
So I go ahead and will miss you a little longer.

(smiling) (laughing) (loving)

Looking for a new career.

Well work has been extremely challenging this year so far and I am trying to be as professional as I can be but it is extremely hard. I am struggling with it, lets leave it at that. Well I have been racking my brain as to what it is I would like to do. Jerrod suggested Floristry which sounds very nice, people would be looking for something nice for someone so the only time it would be dealing with unhappy people would be when some one wants flowers for a funeral or someone sick but other than that it would be rewarding. But while looking at jobs guides I saw a job for Travel Sales Consultant with flight centre. Now that would be a fun job. Something that is fun everyday, helping others organize and plan their perfect  trip and getting ideas for myself. I then went over my holiday pictures and some videos so here are a few of the videos.

Sacre Coeur Montmatre Paris.

So very beautiful

Inspiration

I am doing great with the weight loss. I have lost 5 kilos so far and am feeling great. I have been doing a lot of weight training and am most days sore. My shape is changing I I can feel it in my clothes. Here are some pics that keep me motivated to keep going.